If you're a big believer that everything happens for a reason this is for you. If you're not, this is for you too.
The other day I was reading "Steal Like An Artist" by Austin Kleon (a fabulous book for the creative mind) I came across a quote in the book that stuck with me.
This past year has been such a whirlwind for myself and some of the closest people to me that only connecting the dots backwards allowed us to see the things we at the moment of impact felt were happening to us, were actually happening for us. These things were happening for our progress, for our growth and for our future.
We all have things we can not explain at the surface occur which causes us to wonder why? Why this? Why now? Why me? Things that in our gut feel right, but in our current mind can not be explained.
What I have felt has always allowed me to get past any unexplained apprehension is trust.
To a lot of people (even myself) it was hard to understand my entry into songwriting and music in general. I had always had a love for music on a listener level but had never thought about it from the creating standpoint. I had all these people around me who were in one way or the other involved behind the scenes that I knew as personal friends outside of music. I picked up the pen figured I'd give writing a shot, with a goal of 1 placement. (this is a much longer story that I will get into another time)
When I wrote/produced "Leave With You" I pictured a male pop vocalist. I wanted to get into the hands of an artist at the top of their game in order to maximize the songs marketing potential. I pitched the song for over a year to any A&R, record Label or anyone for that matter who would listen, to no avail. When I decided to release it as a my own single, it took a lot. I was scared. I spent money I didn't have, and time I had no proof wouldn't be wasted on a song I just felt had to be heard. So with a shy, unknown vocalist, with little experience named Bryan Bautista, who I felt had something... I took a chance.
Fast forward 3 years later..
Bryan has gone on to do many great things for himself. He has grown as an individual and artist and I continue to root for him from the sideline. The attention he has gained through his own efforts has allowed "Leave With You" as his first featured Apple Music single to capture an audience it would have never gotten if I had never taken action. The song has been heard all around the world and is featured in the score of a upcoming film. At the time of conception neither one of us could of known what the future had in-store, but looking backwards, it all made sense.
When I tried out for Real World, I had tried out for what would of been the Key West and Sydney Season. That never happened. I was bummed both times. I had made it further and further in each of the separate audition processes. When I ended up making the The Hollywood season even at a shorten time, I was grateful. Not just for the opportunity, but for THAT opportunity. See the other seasons could of never given me a glimpse of a life in entertainment as Hollywood did. It put me in a space with people who would inspire me in Show Hosting, Commercial Acting, things that would allow me to utilize my natural abilities for the future me. Most importantly it allowed me to meet Brandon Schantz, who believed in me. That belief has carried be on forward through many tough times as I find my way.
When The marketing agency I was consulting dismantled under turmoil I could of never imagined it would of lead to greater prosperity with some of the greatest people I have ever met to take a greater role. The chaos, and negative environment was necessary to yield a greater purpose. I now get to build with great minds, positive energy and a renewed sense of team. We would of never had the opportunity to meet or even comprehend our potential. The circumstances brought us together. The dots looking backwards were needed.
Even as I write this now therapeutically I have yet to understand the happenings of my current life. I liken it to the feeling of riding a bicycle downhill with no hands on the handle bars or feet on the pedals. Trying to gain control only creates more instability as I move forward, but, I keep moving forward. As you look for ways to make sense of your life as it unfolds find comfort in knowing that “You can't connect the dots looking forward; you can only connect them looking backwards. So you have to trust that the dots will somehow connect in your future." JUST TRUST. KEEP MOVING FORWARD.